Today I Graced The World

I am shocked and very happy that I made it though another year. I never thought that 35 and I would meet at one point. Shocking how time flies. I do have a ritual I preform every year on my birthday. I get up and put on my copy of Smashing Pumpkins "Gish". There is a very special place in my heart for that album.(Yes, showing my age by using the term "album"). I always listen to the whole CD when waking and before midnight. It does sadden me a bit to listen to it. Music has always been an important force in my life. The ability to put me right at the moment in time when I the innocence of my younger days were in full bloom. I had not lost anyone yet and we were ready to take our first steps into an adult world. So as I look back to a better time, I have to get myself prepared for what is to come. It is hard to describe what has happened to me in the past 35 years but this song does it quite well. Thank you all who sent me birthday wishes. I really do appreciate them. God bless you all and much Love and Light. JD




Muzzle Lyrics(Billy Corgan, composer)

I fear that I'm ordinary
Just like everyone

To lie here and die among the sorrows
Drift among the days

For everything I ever said
And everything I've ever done is gone and dead
As all things must surely have to end
And great lovers will one day have to part
I know that I am meant for this world

My life has been extraordinary
Blessed and cursed and won

Time heals but I'm forever broken
By and by the way...
Have you ever heard the words
I'm singing in these songs?

It's for the girl I've loved all along (Bloggers Note. Replace girl with boy)
Can a taste of love be so wrong?
As all things must surely have to end
And great lovers will one day have to part
I know that I am meant for this world

And in my mind as I was floating
Far above the clouds
Some children laughed
I'd fall for certain
For thinking that I'd last
Forever

But I knew exactly where I was
And I knew the meaning of it all
And I knew the distance to the sun
And I knew the echo that is love
And I knew the secrets in your spires
And I knew the emptiness of youth
And I knew the solitude of heart
And I knew the murmurs of the soul

And the world is drawn into your hands
And the world is etched upon your heart
And the world so hard to understand
Is the world you can't live without

And I knew the silence of the world
And I knew the silence of the world
And I knew the silence of the world
And I knew the silence of the world